Rediscovering Sarah

Well, the past few months have been pretty awesome, staying home with my little angel. Who wouldn't want to hang out with this cutie pie everyday?

Anyhoo, so I've been rockin' out my grad classes, taking care of little one, running, taking care of the household, and then a couple weeks ago it hit me--I hadn't thought about work in weeks! I hadn't looked up teacher ideas, websites, employment sites, anything! For the past eight months, I've thought about going back to work almost everyday. I've tried to keep up with the "field" with journals, websites, chatting with teacher friends, etc. just incase I make a crazy move and get a job mid-year. Who knows...I've done more impulsive things.

But lately, it's been nice. It's been different. I feel like I'm finally letting go of work and rediscovering "pre-teacher" Sarah. (Guuurrrll!)

Before I was a teacher, I was interested in so many things! Then I began my new career and I pretty much obsessed over it. I loved it, but it sucked my soul. Looking back, SO many things took a backseat to my new job. Perhaps it was because I was terrified going into it that I would fail, seeing as how it was a second career. I had never student taught, and I honestly had no idea what I as doing. I went to school for graphic design and studio art. Unfortunately, my obsession to learn more never subsided, and I pushed aside SO many things in my life that I loved!

-changing my hair style, color, cut monthly

-makeup...buying, wearing, changing, loving

-piercings...yes I had them...tongue, belly, etc.

-using my credit cards to shop 'til I dropped (okay, not responsible, but WOW I had a wardrobe!)

-art...making it, viewing it

-jumping out of planes

-photography (I was the wierdo who took my huge camera everywhere...just incase!)

-football, tailgaiting with my hubs (then boyfriend)

-working out

-sports (I used to watch ESPN often and keep up with sports! Really!)

-cooking new things everynight (party of one!)

-watching mindless reality shows

-dancing whenever possible

-pedis, manis, massages

-concerts, music, live shows

-happy hours (well, that never changed)

-spontaneous weekend road trips all over the place

-reading mindless celeb mags

-working 8-5, and not thinking about work one bit after leaving

Then, "teacher" Sarah emerged. In a nutshell, I was so stressed out over teaching and working I had no time for anything else. Seriously..."pre-teaching" Sarah would've bitch slapped "teacher" Sarah in the face. "Teacher" Sarah's hobbies included:

-reading literacy books

-reading literacy websites

-cutting, pasting, typing, gluing anything classroom related

-shopping for clothes only when I reeeeally needed to (shopping at Teach Mart was more important!)

-finding flats to go with my teacher slacks

-finding shirts that won't show any cleavage, or arms, or anything else for that matter

-figuring out how to make it by with the least possible make-up...make-up is so time consuming when you  have so much crap to prepare for every morning!

-keeping my roots up just enough to keep me from looking like complete garbage

(this all multiplied ten fold when "pregnant Sarah" emerged...Good Lord!)

-not caring about movies, television, or anything other than education stuff because I saw it was a "superficial waste of time" (I don't think I turned on MTV or E for six years)

-spending every waking free moment on my work

WTH was I thinking!?!! I obviously lost myself along the way...unacceptable. Now, I'm glad I did work my ass off for a few years, because I learned a hell of a lot, I was given many opportunities to grow and learn, and I did get a lot accomplished. But, I'm pretty excited lately as I'm getting back into things I used to love (but due to my lack of time management and suck life balance) kind of lost. Who cares if my hobbies are silly, superficial, or not considered "teacher" appropriate!? I wasn't always a teacher! Life's too short. No matter what from here on out, I'll always enjoy my family, friends, pedis, and spending too much time in Sephora.

Pass me a People mag and a margi,